I'm feeling a great sense of freedom and release over the issues I've been dealing with. And I'm very grateful. It's like God has stopped pressing me down for a bit so I can enjoy the bit of healing that's happened as a breather before the next round.
There's such messiness in healing. I'm so hyper-sensitive before it even happens and then when I' m in the middle of it -- forget about it! And my poor family and friends. They don't even realize how every little thing they say and do (or don't) gets totally tweeked in my brain and opens up so many other deep rooted issues.
Now if only I could remember this and keep it in perspective. God desires me to be whole and complete; not fragmented. Yet, I am broken and if I am to be authentic and genuine, I can only be who I am thru that broken-ness. It's by the pressing in and thru to the other side that I am healed a little more each time.
Bless God for getting thru another layer. Hopefully, I'm good to go for awhile!
2 comments:
Pressing down is a great image - it brings to mind grapes and vineyards and all those other wonderful metaphors that Jesus used. I like the metaphor of pruning too. Sometimes in life you feel like you're down to just two bare twigs, and it's almost impossible to believe that in a few short months you'll be a gorgeous bush full of roses (or vine full of grapes). I'll just call you Twiggy! (For those of you to young to remember, she was a figure back in the 60's. (Said with English accent,) "From Lunnon, no less!" (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twiggy)
I can relate to being hyper-sensitive! Thanks for sharing. I am glad that you have a breather for awhile.
I really appreciate you revealing that you are broken and are trying to be authentic and genuine...and pressing on to be whole and complete. I think so many of us can relate to this...but it is a scary thing to reveal it.
Hang in there, dear!
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