I despise when I feel I'm being judged. Aside from the obvious reasons... it really causes me to second guess and criticize myself in true OCD fashion. And I'm just not sure that's healthy. It always whammies me in a way that brings me back to that little chubby girl who was just a little too loud, a little too silly, a little too odd (frankly) for appropriate neighbors to allow in their house to play with their little darlings. So then I question and scrutinize every action and word and dwell in the land of regret and "dammit, why couldn't I have..."
I wonder if men go thru this...
I wonder if anyone other than a melodramatic hag as myself goes thru this...
