Pity me

I'm sick and feel like poop! Plus two of my kids have been puking all night! I want my mommy! Ugh. Well, at least I could vent to someone. Thanks.

Brokeback Mountain

I had the opportunity to see Brokeback Mountain this afternoon. I can see why it's too much for some and maybe it is another "hollywood agenda" thing, but it's a film worth seeing; whether you're gay or straight. To be a civilized human being and to treat all people justly, it's pretty valuable to see. It will certainly make you think.

For me, I think I had to see it for a totally different reason than just the controversy. Even while on his deathbed breathing his last moments after a very undignified battle with AIDS, my brother wouldn't come out to me. Not that I asked, and really, it doesn't matter. But I can't help myself whenever there's a gay thing - movie/tv show/ whatever - I've got to see it. I feel like it's the only way I have left to connect to him and to finally get to know him. I think this movie really hit me b/c like my family, there was so much communicated through silence; for good and bad. And too much sadness, leads to great lonliness.

Where this puts me on the gay marriage issue, I don't know. Where this puts me in ministry and church planting, I don't know. I know it's ok to be a little confused and unsure, so I think that's where I'll be for awhile.